This is a commendation, but words are entirely inadequate. The transformation I’ve experienced since working with Emilia over the last 8 months is truly beyond anything I thought possible.

I have had social anxiety and depression dominate almost my entire life of 60 years. I “managed” my symptoms the same way most in our culture do, through prescription psychiatric medications that blunt emotions and use of various addictive substances which brought temporary peace – but with this numbing came an increasing disconnection from Life. I had fully bought into the narrative that I was “born this way” -- deficient in certain brain chemicals and a maladapted emotional system, which could only be treated effectively with traditional western medicine. Yet, with this approach, there was never any true progress, only numbing and disconnectedness, always in fear of unsettling emotions surfacing – surviving, not living.

I have tried multiple therapy modalities and seen at least a half dozen therapists of various backgrounds over the years with limited success. But I always felt as if the thing I needed – whatever it was – was just out of reach.

Despite these challenges, I have a beautiful family, a successful career in Information Technology and try to find time for my hobbies – gardening, hiking, and exploring the latest books and videos on new physics and science in general. Because of my interest in science, I have tended to view my issues from a purely western, science-based perspective; that everything is ultimately physical in nature and that any emotional issues that arise, I believed, required intervention by something physical as well (i.e. man-made chemicals designed to replace the chemicals my brain is deficient in). Even the occasional feelings of awe and connection I get – while being in nature, watching the sun rise, or viewing the stars at night -- or even experiencing the connection with a loved one, I attributed to chemical reactions in the brain; they feel good to us but are essentially meaningless. I’ve wanted to believe that there was more than the physical but had never experienced anything that pointed me in a different direction. But, as I told Emilia when we first connected, I am open to anything that produces results.

Boy, was I in for an awakening, in every sense of the word.

The work with Emilia began simply enough, but the results for me were immediate and unmistakable – I was feeling tension in my body starting to dissipate and a nice, grounded feeling starting to set in.

At first, my brain explained away the results as “she is just showing you relaxation techniques – no big deal”. But there was no disputing that something about this felt different – way different – than the relaxation techniques I had learned from others. I soon became aware that many of the unpleasant emotions that I had been battling for most of my life were starting to soften. I caught myself forgetting to take my anti-anxiety meds that I always needed if I had to give a presentation at work because the anxiety symptoms were not appearing and reminding me.

Throughout my life, my anxiety state seemed like it was always “waiting to strike” and I believed I needed to constantly scan my body for signs it was beginning to make its presence known so that I could take the necessary substances to keep it at bay. This hyper-vigilance is extremely tiring and creates its own layers on top of the anxiety. But, after I began working with Emilia, as I scanned my body, I started to become increasingly aware that these painful shards of anxiety were often nowhere to be found. Instead, it seemed open, flowing, clean, and expansive.

I also began to sense that the openness that I was feeling was filling in with something which almost seemed to be “pulling me forward” and guiding me. And there was a feeling like “everything is falling into place.” I have never been particularly spiritual, but this felt like I was connecting with something beyond my physical body. I began eating differently – not because I “should” or “wanted to” but because doing anything differently felt “incorrect.”

Over just a few months, my energy level exploded, and I began to lose pretty much all my excess weight. I had much more stamina, no joint pain, and only mild muscle soreness after doing lots of physical work in my garden (which would have debilitated me for 2-3 days in the past). I had just turned 60 for God’s sake – when does something like this happen at this age in just a handful of months? I, and everyone around me, could not believe what they were witnessing. I honestly don’t recall feeling this level of health and energy since I was 13…and I wasn’t even trying!

The level of success I was experiencing, and the guidance I was receiving, was what led me to decide that it was time to begin getting off my prescription meds and other substances – something I had attempted numerous times in the past but never got past a few days due to the overwhelming discomfort and agony.

Here’s a brief outline of the timeline:

• Oct-2024: Began work with Emilia. Using 3 different high-dosage prescription psychiatric meds; heavy usage of kratom throughout the day (kratom is a leaf harvested in south east Asia which is effective for use with opiate withdrawals I’ve used since getting off prescription pain meds in 2014 and is also very addictive).

• Nov-2024: First realization that “something seems to be working – and at a deeper level than anything I’ve experienced before!”

• Dec-2024: Began to “forget” to take my anti-anxiety meds because my anxiety wasn’t there to remind me. Decided it was time to begin the weaning process and “see how far I can take this.”

• Jan-2025: I started a taper schedule that, if I could stick to it, would have me off of everything by the end of Jun-2025.

• Early Feb-2025: Since I was experiencing essentially no withdrawals at this point, I began decreasing my doses even more than my taper schedule.

• Late Feb-2025: My one major setback -- the aggressive taper schedule finally catches up with me and a wave of depression hits HARD.  But what was different this time compared to previous attempts, I now had awareness of, and connection with, an inner source of strength and calm that previously I had no access to – like a lifeline that allowed me to tread water and not give up.

• Mar-2025: Kept all my doses the same from early Feb, no tapering until I felt like both my feet were on the ground. With Emilia’s continued help, I was able to get my head above water, breathe again, and reconnect  with the process.

• Apr-2025: As the taper process restarted, I started to notice more major shifts occurring both at the mental and physical levels. I began to feel the clarity and expansiveness again and, as before, the expansiveness fill in with grounded energy and clarity. By this time, I had lost 30 pounds and began to realize that I was entirely free of anxiety. I have no words to describe how unbelievable it is to have something that has controlled my life in so many ways suddenly disappear – quietly. For me, this feels like “eyesight to the blind.” Incredible.

• May-2025: Feelings of empowerment and clarity of purpose continue. As of early May, I am off all psychiatric meds and kratom tapering is ahead of schedule. On May 30th, I decided my kratom dose is so low, I’ll try stopping and see what happens. Nothing…nothing happened after a day, 3 days, a week. As of 5/30/25, I am substance free -- and in the best health of my life! My weight has now stabilized and is now where it was when I was 18.

Don’t get me wrong, there were several periods of time which were difficult, but not soul-crushing as before. With Emilia’s guidance and healing intuition, I feel like a new person – free of anxiety, free of the need for substances, and able to finally able to experience LIFE.

I have tried so many different approaches and therapists over the years – but all it took was connecting with Emilia, allowing her to open doors that I never knew existed and, as these doors opened, working together to find the path for me to follow. She is a truly gifted healer and a beautiful soul who has changed my life in ways I thought were impossible. I cannot recommend her highly enough!